"I've got scars you won't believe, Wear them proudly on my sleeve..."

Today I realised just how strong I am and understand a lot more why SS, KF, & my big sister and even P say that I am a better person than most because of how I handle things and do not react the way most people would even after all I have been through especially the past 2 and  bit years. You don't realise how much you can handle or cope with until it all comes to a point and find you are still willing to keep fighting and believing even though everyone else thinks you are making a big mistake.

 The past year I have been able to learn a lot about myself and how I react to situations and why, especially the last 5 or so months when I left Wellington. I have also learnt that you can’t run away or erase things in life but you can make a decision on how you let situations affect you and your life. You can either let it hurt and destroy you or you can use it to remind you how far you have come and why you keep fighting, as well as to remind you of how you don't want your life to be.  I seem to choose the latter, to help keep myself moving forward and fighting and to look at the positives in life because otherwise crap just pulls you down. 

Today has been a shocker of a day and yet I am smiling and ok because I understand and know the reasons why things happen and due to everything I have been through in my just about 32 years of life I guess I am a lot stronger than I give myself credit for in more ways than one. I think the fact I made someone probably fall off their chair when I said I forgive them and shocked them just proves how far I have come the past 7 years let alone my whole life. But like I told them, Life is too short! 

Yes I have gone through a hell of a lot the past 32 years but I am proud of the person I have become. I may have scars and some horrible memories but I have become someone who can be there for others no matter the situation, I can smile even though I have been hurt and I am happy within myself and know that when life throws me lemons I can keep on going! I may have a lil baggage but I have also dealt with a shitload more in the past couple of years then some realise. Scars or no scars I am happy no matter what and can I smile and be happy on my own doing my own thing.