so this week started out pretty crazy yet the above lyrics have been stuck in my head... Kinda fitting for someone who has done a tonne of thinking & decision making lately on how to achieve what goals I have for the year while the past 8 wks things have been chaotic and falling down around me.
I realised lately that to hell with what anyone else thinks I am going to put myself first on a few decisions... With my head held high and remembering that those that love me and care will understand and if not then screw them!
I'm still heading for my goals just doing it slightly different to how I first planned :)
so since I have been miserable since day 1 up here due to the job being ripped out from under me I am going to get back to where I am happy. Instead of being all alone up here which is what i have benn the past several weeks since things disintergrated with my bestie & one other. I'm going to go back to where I have friends & family. I discovered I can transfer uni's etc which helps so Roll on the next four months so I can be back in the familar and with ppl who truly care etc.
I also realised while I was down in Invercargill that as much as I dislike the place and was born in warm sunny Hawkes Bay, I really am a Southland Country gal at heart and that you can take the girl out of the country but you can't take the country out of the gal!
Which could be a reason this gal is hasn't been coping in the concrete jungle of Auckland. I realised when we went to see Miss 5 on her first ever fishing trip on sunday how much I learned growing up down there, with holidays in Orepuki & camping at the lakes etc.....
I wouldn't be me without the experiences I had growing up down there even though I was always dreaming on how to get away from there..... now as the lyrics say "she's got her head in the clouds and she's not backing down".... its true I'm still going to fight to get what I want to achieve!
"Filled with catastrophe, but she knows she can fly..." - AND SO I SHALL!!! :-)
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