So it's been 15 wks and counting since my injury first occurred and 5 wks since I ended up in Wellington hospital. Sadly I am still no better off with doing physio etc. Instead I'm taking panadol & ibuprofen like tic tacs and it's still not even dulling the pain.
Some days are better than others but sadly it's like I'm having to say goodbye to life as I knew it. Goodbye to being able to walk, goodbye to working out at the gym several times a week and even goodbye to just taking a shower easily. Life isn't how it was a few months ago in so many ways.
I guess to make matters worse is the fact I'm having to deal with it all on my own. No one understands how much pain I'm in and I actually have no one I can really rely on anymore.
The past few weeks have been ones of revelations that hurt like hell. Mostly because one won't admit that they lied to me. That they did it for their own selfish reasons. What sucks more is all I want is to feel completely numb and have no memories so then life can just be as it is...
Unfortunately life isn't what it seems and I guess I can't make that happen. I just have to hope that one day I won't remember any of it.
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