"Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down Baby, I don't care!"

I came to the conclusion this week while I was facing hard decisions that for the past 10months I have been harassed and had crap said about me due to one of the big situations in my life. I have let it get to me and affect how I think and react with someone. I realised that I shouldn't be letting it! If they think they know my life without knowing the full story then so be it... They obviously are not happy with their own lives and feel the need to knock others down to feel better. I don't need them reminding me how crap etc I am etc, as I already beat myself up over things I've stuffed up lol... but at least I can honestly say that I have never harassed or hurt someone like they have me. I also forgive them because they obviously don't know any better. I hope one day they learn from their mistakes... whereas I've learned even if you know whose behind it no-one really cares or will deal with it :( The past week I decided that I'm not going to care what others think when it comes to my decisions I'm making them for me & me alone because I truly am alone in this world in some ways. So time to set my goals and go.... I have given up the silly childhood notion of meeting anyone to end up with etc, because the one thing I have learned is I just can't do relationships in any way shape or form... so I'm just going to throw myself completely into work & study because that's the only real things I've got going for me so might as well give it my all... I'm going to be 31 in 4months time so time to get serious and just get degree and work....